//shame

i feel it in the way i still want you
the way i still think about you
and how i know you’re out there
thinking of and feeling
someone or something else

//on second thought

if only we had thought less
and loved a little more
things could have been
so very different

//sensitive soul

oh, the struggle of a sensitive soul
you change your mind
and i know it before you do
yet i still lie awake through the nights
asking myself what i did wrong

//rust

in rust colored light
and winter’s crisp bite
i think of you
and i find myself missing
a touch i’ve never felt
and the taste of lips
i’ve never kissed

//salt

who even knows why
she suddenly gets
the taste of salt
in her mouth
and realize she’s crying,
who even knows why
she gets so sad
it seeps out of her at 3am
thinking she won’t notice

//thirst

i gave you my glass
filled with water
and still wonder
why i can’t quench
my own thirst

//to go back in time

i lie awake at night
wishing i could go back
not to change how things are
or how they aren’t
but to feel one or two things
all over again

//tired

no one asked if she was okay
because they already knew
her saying she’s just tired
didn’t mean a lack of sleep

//ask me again

part of me
was always going to hope
you’d turn around
and ask me again
that you’d ask me
one more time
what i really want
even though the answer
is always going to be you

//sleep

how silly of me it is
to dream when i’m awake
but when i dream
i dream of you
in my dreams your fingers trace
every curve on my body
your lips whisper secrets
inbetween every kiss
in my dreams it’s always you and me,
and still people ask
why i love to sleep

//butterflies

staying lonely
to protect a fragile heart
is the safe thing to do
yet here i am
butterflies threatening
to break out of my chest
all from a single whisper
that held your name

//holland

do you remember that song
it was the most beautiful song
that set all of this in motion
the late nights
the ruined sleep schedules
the friendship that grew
into something so much more,
you might not realize it
but that was our song
i can’t bring myself
to press play again
because it isn’t ours anymore
and you are not mine